B word = Blessing.

Agency is awesome.
Its what this life is about.
Having the opportunity to make choices and learn and grow from those choices.
Sometimes Agency can be such a B-word.

I have never been very good at decision making.

- I have acted on impulse...
EX.
In college I thought it would be awesome to have a motorcycle.
The next day, Kate and I went to 1 car dealership {The most shady and dishonest one on the block-it went out of business in months following my purchase}. I bought a super cute lil' motorbike for 2,000. bucks. Which somehow turned into 3500.
I drove away very pleased with myself. The next day. I thought Maybe i should have researched this a little more...I went over to the Motorsports dealership the next day. I cried. I could have gotten a much bigger/better bike for the same price if not cheaper. I tried not to kick myself too hard, You live and learn right...

- I have taken the easy road.
EX.
After graduating from Dixie College with my associates I didnt know where to go next. I could have gone to USU and studied music therapy. I could have Gone to SUU and done Music Education. I didn't exactly know what I wanted to do, I just knew I wanted to be surrounded by music. I ended up staying at Dixie and doing the Elementary Education program by default. It was the easiest path. I lived here. had a job here, and I could use music in my classroom. It was what i was supposed to do. I know I needed to be here but I never felt like I made a choice. I waited around and time just led me down that path.

- I have pondered and prayed.
EX.
Mission papers were filled out and ready to be turned in...
Dating a really cool guy named Jon Butler...
This was actually the easiest decision of my life.
I had wanted to serve a mission my whole life. I thought sister missionaries were the bees knees and I wanted to be one.
When I prayed about it, Jon was the answer. All of the questioning and uneasiness that surrounded me went away when I thought about my Jon Butler.

This summer has presented two major Grown-up choices.

1-Talent Sprouts
{Partnerships can be a real B-Word.}
Jon and Stacie know me better than any two people. They know my strengths and my weaknesses. The past year at Talent Sprouts has taught me so much about myself and about Partnerships. With kiddo #2 coming in the Fall, Jon and I had been praying for months about what to do with my role in this business.
The answer came. {it was hard but it came}.
I love this school. It is everything I wanted in a career. Kids, music, and tons of happy.
but now I need to put my kids first, i can still have my music, and its still tons of happy.
I just got back from Talent Sprouts with Max, and while we were there a Mom stopped by to enroll her son. I was so excited and loved chatting with her about this really great program. I was a little bit sad afterwards cuz I felt like I was going to miss out on a ton of fun. But i know that if I don't take this break I would be missing out on a really important year with my boys.

I love Miss Stacie Rin. She has made Talent Sprouts so amazing. She has poured her whole heart and soul into. It hasn't been fair to her that my heart and soul havent been equally poured. Good Luck with SChool Year #2 Stace!! I know its going to be so GREAT!!!!

2-BUYING a home.
{Family can be a real B-word.}
We have been looking for something to buy since we found out I was pregnant. We need more space and have been renting for four years. Now that the market is so low its finally a possibility. Jon and I have been trying to make this grown-up decision as best we can. We have fasted and prayed and asked our family members for advice. We appreciate all of it. Its still really a tough decision and we hope everyone will be supportive and comfortable in our new home...wherever it may be.